Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong (shadesong) wrote,
Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong

Taking stock and planning ahead

So this is the year everything changed, and this year is almost over. Now is when I sit with myself and evaluate everything and plan out What Comes Next.

I have a pretty good idea of some of it. I have a great big life-changing project that I'll start telling you all about in the new year. I have some things in motion that are equally life-changing that I likewise can't talk about online just yet. But it's a good sort of life-changing.

Mostly what I'm doing right now is using this liminal space to evaluate what I want, what I need, and what I am capable of. I have some plans germinating that will make my activism more efficient, for example. And I'm facing the fact that I really have to view everything in terms of efficiency, because I've accepted that my body is less functional than it's been and that it's unlikely to improve much. I have to look at what I'm capable of doing with my current average energy level, so I can be sure to use that energy most effectively. If I do get some radical improvement, great! But it does me no good to be frustrated with myself for not being able to do All The Things All The Time. Better to focus.

So I'm sitting with myself this week, and figuring out what comes next, what 2014 and beyond will look like for me. I feel good about this.

And we get Elayna back on Thursday, for almost a whole month! So much of the rest of December will be sitting with her in much the same way, sorting out all of the freshman-year feels, helping her focus on her goals.

Also baking cookies. There will be lots of baking. :)

Thankfully, Bash is still fine with being a solo cat. He continues to require a lot of attention from his humans, but he isn't yowling for a feline companion. Which is good. That's a thing I don't want to rush into.

So that's where I am.
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