* I have been super low-energy and dealing with some pretty massive fatigue for several weeks now; that's almost certainly contributed to the lack of posting!
* A factor in that is that my sleep schedule is totally b0rked. Waking up around 5 AM is not unusual. Daytime naps are the norm. This is frustrating! I'm hoping that Michael and Lynne's visit helps reset that, like my visit to them did.
* Have been jamming on the knitting; whipped out a cowl for Elayna and a birthday scarf for my dad. I want to make fingerless mitts for myself, but knitting magic loop is arduous and annoying for me; I tried to teach myself two circs, but failed. I will try again today. I'll need to do small-diameter knitting in the round for the sleeves and pockets of Elayna's sweater, so I need that back in my skillset!
* I'm back to BARCC volunteering - I had a thing Monday, and I have a thing today. Starting slow. It feels good to be back.
* Max... perseveres. He is delicate and too skinny. He has days when he eats all his food, and days when he nibbles. He is all bones and lethargy. But he came upstairs last week for the first time in weeks. But he's having seizures. (The seizures scare him - his heart pounds like a wild thing - but he goes back to purring and snuggling soon.) I love him and I cuddle him and I make sure he's comfortable.
* I miss Elayna, and I still find myself pausing at around three with "Oooh, kid will be home soon!" Kid will not be home soon. Daily active parenting --> college parenting is a huge adjustment, and my life has been full of huge adjustments this year.
* Looking forward to the weekend - on Friday, Adam and I will see Twelfth Night. Saturday is the MIT Glass Pumpkin Patch! And also a party and another thing or two if I've time and energy.
And Sunday? Sunday, Michael, Lynne, and Caitlin arrive. <3
"We write to discover what we believe." ~~Jonathan Carroll
"...part of you pours out of me in these lines from time to time." ~~"Case of You", Joni Mitchell
"There is a crack in everything; that's how the light gets in." ~~"Anthem", Leonard Cohen
"If you wanna be immortal, you gotta have something to trade in." ~~"Anything", Foetus
"This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of Nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy." ~~George Bernard Shaw
"The real secret of magic is that the world is made of words, and that if you know the words that the world is made of you can make of it whatever you wish." ~~Terence McKenna
"When we die, we will turn into songs, and we will hear each other and remember each other." ~~Rob Sheffield
"I have a sickness in the brain. I'm allowed to make no sense to you puny mortals with your fully operational head-meat." ~~Spider Jerusalem
"Sometimes you crash. Sometimes, the fall kills you. And sometimes... sometimes, you fly." ~~Neil Gaiman
"Reputation is what other people know about you. Honor is what you know about yourself." ~~Lois McMaster Bujold
"Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal." ~~Albert Camus
"Being able to speak the unspeakable is very powerful. If we can hear another person express where they get stuck, or lost, or repeat a negative pattern, it builds a bridge." ~~SARK
"Myths and legends die hard in America." ~~Hunter S. Thompson
"Don't undertake a project unless it is manifestly important and nearly impossible." ~~Edwin Land
"Having faced the fire of your initiation and survived its heat, you can now serve others in a whole new way. By being a living testimony to life transformed, you carry in your cells a sacred knowledge, and in your mind and heart a sacred fire. It's not the fire of youth but the fire of Prometheus, who emerged with the light that would light the world. It's a light that you only could have gotten from having faced some version of your personal hell, and now you are inoculated to the fires which rage around us. Sometimes it is fire that puts out fire, and such is the fire that now burns in you. This is not the fire of your destruction but of your victory. It is the fire of the middle years." ~~Marianne Williamson
"Considering how common illness is, how tremendous the spiritual change it brings, how astonishing, when the lights of health go down, the undiscovered countries that are then disclosed…what ancient and obdurate oaks are uprooted in us by the act of sickness…it becomes strange indeed that illness has not taken its place with love and battle and jealously among the prime themes of literature." ~~Virginia Woolf
"The Universe puts us in places were we can learn. They are never easy places, but they are right. Wherever we are is the right place, at the right time. The pain that sometimes comes is part of the process of constantly being born."
"I will tell you a great secret, Captain, perhaps the greatest secret of all time: The molecules of your body are the same molecules that make up this station, and the nebula outside - that burn inside the stars themselves. We are star-stuff. We are the Universe made manifest, trying to figure itself out. And, as we have both learned, sometimes the Universe requires a change of perspective." ~~Delenn, Babylon 5
"Light Leak", by SJ Tucker
Swirling stars into my skin With a leaky stolen pen Stories end, pull kenning in Let the light leak in I finally let the light leak in
I am kenning all I can She and I, me and my mind, Writing hard for the one true thing That lets you let me in Beguiling what must to gain the trust of the minutemen I am worth investing in and I never stop spinning.
Kenning yarns out of my skin With a leaky borrowed pen Swirling stars and stories in Will you let the light leak in?