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Scheherazade in Blue Jeans
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So I got through June and July. And at the end of July, I got to… 
17th-Sep-2013 01:15 pm
Best Friends
So I got through June and July. And at the end of July, I got to visit Michael and Lynne again! For almost two weeks! Which was incredibly important. Because as much as we'd fallen ridiculously in love, we'd only ever *physically* been together in times of extreme crisis. We knew that that wasn't normal everyday us. And we needed to know what normal might be like.

Y'know. What passes for normal with us. :)

A thing you should know about me is that I am very attached to my home. I like being elsewhere for tiny increments of time, but I get homesick very easily, and I get tetchy when I don't have my place and my stuff. Especially with my medically-complicated stuff. So... two weeks! That is a lot of time! How long would it be before I was cranky?

I did not get cranky.

Michael + Lynne = me + Adam, basically. I'd been saying this since the early days. Our dynamics are similar in a lot of ways. This extends to their house and the rhythm of their lives. I was instantly totally comfortable. Not once did I feel not at home. That has never happened.

And as much as Michael and I bond like crazy every day on chat, being in person? Levels us up tremendously. That and the way we catch ourselves looking at each other in absolute delight and wonder, and then crack up because we are SO RIDICULOUS. So much exploration. So much discovery. Amazing and revelatory.

And then I went home and spent August with Elayna, and we're caught up!

So yeah. This has been a thing. That in the middle of everything else, I was falling in love. I was discovering someone just like me - and by loving him so completely, I found myself able to forgive and love some parts of myself I'd long since locked away. I wasn't writing about it first because I was trying not to let myself fall, then because it was too bewilderingly huge a mass of emotion, then other stuff.

But it's been changing my life.

Entirely for the better.

They'll be here in twelve days, staying for almost two weeks. I'm menu-planning, planning outings, planning time for the five of us (Adam and their daughter Caitlin) to just hang out here and watch TV together and just be. I get to show them my place, and at least some of my people. And that makes me very, very happy. <3

So that's where we are right now.
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17th-Sep-2013 05:31 pm (UTC)
Agreed. (Though I think if we had to choose between "happy and not writing" and "writing and not happy" we'd both vote for the former, "happy and writing" is clearly the winner overall.)
17th-Sep-2013 05:40 pm (UTC)
Thirded.
17th-Sep-2013 05:54 pm (UTC)
I read all 3 entries in full, and it was such a delight to read! Your joy at all this is very, very palpable, and it's lovely to see after the s*** you went through with Judah. Blessings!
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17th-Sep-2013 07:36 pm (UTC)
Yay for happy!
17th-Sep-2013 08:21 pm (UTC)
Nice!
17th-Sep-2013 10:39 pm (UTC)
Neato!
18th-Sep-2013 09:22 am (UTC)
I am so happy to be reading this. I want all of you to make it as rich and full as you can...
YIS,
WRI

Edited at 2013-09-18 09:22 am (UTC)
18th-Sep-2013 10:05 pm (UTC)
Adding my joy to the pile! So happy for you!
19th-Sep-2013 04:11 am (UTC) - Yay!
I like you! I liked him! I am contractually obligated to like her as she went to my college (we're a cult with an academic program) ;) hope you all have fun!
19th-Sep-2013 01:35 pm (UTC)
Things sound like they are going awesome. You deserve happiness so I am glad it is happening. Dating a couple is fun, not just for the obvious reasons. I enjoyed it. I am still friends with the couple I dated. And it mayyyyyyy be that something else is on the horizon where I will be part of the couple and not be the gf this time.. maybe... poly possibilities are endless after all.....
24th-Sep-2013 10:24 pm (UTC)
You write wonderfully well! And I'm delighted to read about joy in your life.
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