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Scheherazade in Blue Jeans
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17th-May-2013 10:08 am
So where I'm at:

As I mentioned in brief, the tickly throat Judah and I had on Saturday turned into... nothing for him. For me? Being massively congested and kitten-weak through Wednesday. Yesterday I was just mostly weak, not totally immobile, and I've entered the terrifying-cough phase, which means that I am almost out of this, if I can keep it from turning into bronchitis. Y'all should buy stock in Mucinex and Symbicort.

Then in the middle of that, Monday night, I had a hideous, possibly life-changing nastiness visited upon me. Big boom. Lots of shrapnel. So I've spent this week trying to process and trying to help others process. The problem being that I can't do both at the same time, and... hell, I'd tell you what happened if I felt like it was a good idea, but things are settling and we're waiting on information. Let's just say that me helping others here is sorta injurious to me helping myself, but I have to do it anyway, and I have to fix everything on a damn deadline, because I am going away for a week on Monday.

This was supposed to be my rest week! Last week I had almost all of the deadline stuff - bringing my glasses in, getting Elayna's prom dress tailored, etc. This week was supposed to be the smaller stuff and a lot of rest. Instead it's been constant emotional awfulness while sick.

Here. My schedule. Let me show you it.

5/21-5/22: Chicago, pre-Wiscon
5/23-5/27: WISCON Y'ALL for which I have to prepare a bunch of stuff like right now argh
5/28: I fly home.
5/29: BARCC Gala steering committee meeting, probably last-minute prom stuff
5/30: Awards Night at Elayna's school, when we find out if she got scholarships from local organizations. *crosses fingers*
5/31: Elayna's prom! An afternoon flurry of hair, makeup, corsage.
6/1: Cambridge Riverfest and a friend's party
6/2: nothing YET and skip ahead to
6/5-6/10: My parents, birthmother, aunt, uncle, sister, and brother-in-law all in town for Elayna's June 7th graduation!

So basically I can't breathe 'til after that. Let alone write. It's been a while since I've had time to write and any emotional energy to spare. I'm exactly as happy about that as you think I am. Oh, and somewhere in there, I'll hopefully find out why I'm still in constant physical pain.

Today I'll pick up my glasses and hope they're right this time. Tomorrow we'll visit a florist and see if we can commission a damn corsage already.


Yeah, if you see me at Wiscon? Tea or booze and hugs.

It is not all bad! The undercurrent through the past few months, the reason I've been able to keep it all together... I have a Person who's been holding the other end of my rope. Bastian to my Atreyu; he was there in the swamp, etc. And yes, I have been vague, and yes, I will still be vague - because that, too, it not completely resolved. There are additional dimensions to it that'll be clear really soon, and then I'll feel like I can tell you everything. I've been keeping from discussing because things are not quite complete, and I'd rather present all the OMGFEELS at once! But I did need to say that things are not all bad.

At least the chaos of the past few months has kept me from bursting into tears over Elayna's imminent graduation and departure quite as often as I otherwise might have.

So that is where I am.

Friday Memeage
Wearing: Right now, tank top and Superman underpants.
Reading: Perfumes: The Guide by Luca Turin and Tania Sanchez, which is both informative and HILARIOUSLY BITCHY.
Writing: Heh. Well, I wrote an outline for a poem that I missed the deadline on because people exploded my life this week.
Knitting: Same; have not touched the needles all week due to constant work on awfulness.
Planning: After breakfast, I'll go pick up my glasses. I have museum passes for the Gardner reserved, and Judah suggested that he go with me (which is frankly the only way I can go - if I get a ride - because my lungs are fragile right now), but I don't know if that still holds, given that his schedule changes every five minutes. (He basically has three jobs now.)
Saturday, I'd like to go to Trivia in the Park.
Sunday, I'd like to go to Strip Hop Hooray, but people in my life seem curiously disinterested in hip-hop burlesque.


17th-May-2013 02:16 pm (UTC)
strip hop hooray sounds like exactly what i need right now
17th-May-2013 02:24 pm (UTC)
I would go to the burlesque. :-)

<3 that song, but you probably knew that. :)

17th-May-2013 02:24 pm (UTC)
Oh, if I lived closer to you, I would totally be going with you to Hip-Hop Burlesque!!


Anyway, just wanted to add that corsages are overrated. I didn't have one (prom date was a friend ...he also wore sneakers and a big furry pimp hat, so traditional decorum was not high on his list) and had a grand time anyway. :D

Also also: thinking good thoughts for you (and for Elayna's scholarship possibilities!).
17th-May-2013 02:39 pm (UTC)
I would totally go to hip-hop burlesque with you if I weren't going to be in China :(

I'm sorry to hear about the life explodeyness. *offers hugs and booze*
17th-May-2013 02:50 pm (UTC)
*big hugs* When are you leaving?
17th-May-2013 02:53 pm (UTC)
Tomorrow at 6pm. I thought it was 6am, so I am suddenly free most of the day. Want to go to the MFA with me? I have passes and can get you in for free.
17th-May-2013 02:56 pm (UTC)
Oooh. When do you need a decision by? I'm interested in the trivia thing, and also I'm not 100% sure my body's up to lots of walking yet, but I should have a handle on that by the end of the (hopefully restful) day.
17th-May-2013 03:03 pm (UTC)
When do you need a decision by?

Not until tomorrow morning. I'm planning on leaving my house around 9:30 or 10, and I only have about two hours worth of attention span for museums, so home by 1. Also, I plan to drive because the green line is horrible and my knees have been cranky this week.
18th-May-2013 12:46 pm (UTC)
I'm up and still feeling iffy, so not today, alas. :( But thank you! And I'd love to go some other time!
18th-May-2013 03:45 pm (UTC)
It's okay. I woke up with a migraine, the first I've had in over a year. If there was any doubt about what my migraine triggers are, this would have cleared it up.
17th-May-2013 03:28 pm (UTC)
One girlfriend is in Sweden. (I miss her.)
Another girlfriend is in Connecticut. (I also miss her.)
Sleep scheduled with my son is hectic as ever.
Barely survived another trip with the inlaws.
17th-May-2013 03:29 pm (UTC)
one day i'll be in the same place as you, dammit. *long distance hugs*
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17th-May-2013 08:59 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Progress is happening, with lots of hard work. Just - I needed a few days without doing tons of hard work!

EDIT: Also, let us know next time you'll be here so we can have you over for dinner or something!

Edited at 2013-05-17 09:00 pm (UTC)
18th-May-2013 05:05 am (UTC)
Yeah, if you see me at Wiscon? Tea or booze and hugs.

So, if there's only tea, are there no hugs? It sounds like hugs can only be combined with booze. Not that it's a bad thing, mind you, but I'm sure some tea-and-hugs aficionados would be upset by this.
18th-May-2013 10:50 am (UTC)
I'm sorry that Life decided to pull an explosive maneuver on you. It sounds like that was the very last thing you needed, thankyouverymuch. I hope...stuff improves and that you get answers to the questions about pain.
24th-May-2013 02:48 am (UTC)
What I get for falling behind on my LJ, finding out about hip hop burlesque after it's too late.
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