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I spent all day couch shopping with my parents, which was exactly as… 
15th-Mar-2012 11:05 pm
Elayna 2011
I spent all day couch shopping with my parents, which was exactly as awful as I had always dreamed it would be. And then all evening being plaintive about how much I miss Elayna - it seems so wrong not to see my daughter on her birthday. :(

Rehearsal let out around 10. She opened her birthday gifts, which she loved! She had just a few minutes to chat before her shower; after her shower, she headed for her bedroom, the said "One more hug!" and came back and hugged me. I reminded her to dry her hair a bit more, and fetched her an armload of extra blankets. (The boiler issue? Not really fixed, and now we are heat-free. He's coming back tomorrow morning.) I piled blankets on blankets, she tunneled in; I started to dim her lights, and I paused.

And sang.

"Goodnight, sweetheart, well, it's time to go..."
(Elayna: "Ba badda ba bum")
"Goodnight, sweetheart, well, it's time to go..."
("Ba ba-da bum")
"I hate to leave you, but I really must say,"
Chorused: "Goodnight, sweetheart, goodnight."

I sang that to her every night of her life, right up through middle school when she decided that it might be uncool. I sang it to her the night she was born. When I was out of town, I called her to sing it to her over the phone.

So just spontaneously, tonight, her seventeenth birthday, I reminded her, and she sang with me. There is nothing more perfect than that moment... her realizing what I was doing, chiming in, and her megawatt grin after.

Good night, Elayna. Happy birthday. <3
16th-Mar-2012 03:14 am (UTC)
Happy birthday to her. What a beautiful story.
16th-Mar-2012 03:42 am (UTC)
That was beautiful and brought a tear to my eye. Happy birthday, Elayna!
16th-Mar-2012 05:34 am (UTC) - Just Had to Say

Complete stranger here, and fellow live journal user. I came across one of your poems titled The Changeling's Lament through stumbleupon and I had to tell you that I was truly moved and impressed by your writing. Just thought you should know that you are appreciated.
21st-Mar-2012 04:38 pm (UTC) - Re: Just Had to Say
Thank you so much! Of everything I've ever written, The Changeling's Lament has reached the most people... and I'm so happy that it has, and that people are connecting to it.
16th-Mar-2012 11:03 am (UTC) - Dammit
you made me cry.

That was very sweet.
16th-Mar-2012 11:43 am (UTC)
:-) I actually thought of singing that to her as I was going to bed.
16th-Mar-2012 12:02 pm (UTC)
That's incredibly sweet.
For Bryanna, it was "Here Comes the Sun", which I first began singing to her when I was in the throes of post-partum depression. She was my only ray of light back then, and if maybe I cried a few times singing it, it was perfectly natural. When she was hospitalized for her first seizure, I sang it for both of us.

For Aidan, "In My Life". Both songs are simultaneously sad and hopeful. Is it any wonder that my kids are Beatles fans? LOL
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16th-Mar-2012 06:19 pm (UTC)
And since we're sharing, I used to sing an altered version of "Mr. Sandman" to Cecily, and while I don't do it every night now, we still sing it sometimes. <3
17th-Mar-2012 02:09 am (UTC)
ya'll are too cute for words.
17th-Mar-2012 09:31 pm (UTC)
21st-Mar-2012 09:07 pm (UTC)
I remember joining in on that song some Thanksgivings :)
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