Nothing is bad (almost), everything is good (almost); it's just - everything is going to be different.
I've not much been talking about this online because the ways in which everything's changing are so internal and hard to conceptualize. What I can say is that my future looks really a lot different now than it did two seasons ago. So... bear with me as I figure me out.
EDIT: I said this in a comment, but I'm putting it here to so no one else worries! Obligatory reassurance that all of my relationships, including my mother/child relationship, are rock-solid.
The only thing that is not good is medical stuff. In that there may be more of it. That is frustrating, no lie, and some of the liminality has to do with "what do I do to best accommodate this and still have an awesome life." But, y'know, I am committed to having an awesome life, and my life has exponentially more awesome in it than it did two seasons ago, and more to come. So even that is just a thing to be acknowledged and passed through on my way to awesome stuff that is different from and, yes, awesomer than the future I was already going to have.
I am in a territory that has no map, and I am writing the map as I go... but, as necessary as maps are, they tend to define the territory. So I am taking my time, to make sure I do it right!