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Scheherazade in Blue Jeans
freelance alchemist
31st-Dec-2010 06:34 pm
No power in the 'verse...
This is the day that the last ten days of stress and the last long awful day of travel reared up and bitchslapped me; I napped for a big chunk of the day, and have been spacey the rest of it. I remind myself to breathe; this happens, this is okay.

I don't generally make resolutions. I am keenly aware that my body will do what it wants and sometimes that means I don't accomplish shit. I would like to resolve "more dancing" and "regular non-walking exercise". I will try for both of those things. I will not beat myself up if I don't accomplish them.

What do I want? I want to do more, dance more, perform more, be more. What I run up against here, quite frankly, is time. I do not have time to do burlesque and roller derby and dance classes and theatre. I have time for one, maybe.

What do I want? I want to keep stretching, to keep trying, to keep learning. That, I can do.

I have a few concrete resolutions - things that are mostly not dependent on anyone else, things that are doable and attainable.

Writing Resolution: I will finish Cicatrix by the Autumn Equinox. It will be done by the time sindrian returns.

Writer/Activist Resolution: I will get several chapters in the "dismantling rape culture" book.

Activist Resolution: I will do a proposal for at least one professional conference. I'd say more than one, but I have never done this before; I don't know what it will take. Of everything, this is the farthest from my comfort zone.

Chatelaine Resolutions:
I will cook and bake more: something new once a week. Enough of resting on our very-basic laurels. I want to try new things, and I have a huge stack of interesting safe-for-me recipes.
I will maintain a better standard of tidiness. This is the resolution that's dependent on others; I need Adam and Elayna to work with me on this. But I'm miserable when my house is cluttered. It looks pretty good now, thanks to the pre-trip cleaning sweep. I want it to stay that way.

Knitting Resolution: I will make a thing that counts as an article of clothing, not just an accessory. I'll probably start with baby sweaters so I can get the hang of it before I make a sweater for myself. But I will at least begin a sweater for myself this year.

What do I want? I want more patience and more grace. I want 2011 to be our best year yet. I want to not be afraid of writing Cicatrix. I want explosive delight and warm contentment. I want everyone who wants babies to have babies. I want everyone to live through 2011. I want no tragedies. "Just this once, everybody lives." I want dinner parties. I want to make things. I want to be occasionally gobsmacked by sheer wonder. I want to dance. I want to risk. I want to grow my wings on the way down. I want to be better, I want to do better.

What do you want?
31st-Dec-2010 11:31 pm (UTC)
I want my internet back.
2nd-Jan-2011 11:40 pm (UTC)

I want my $2. :P
31st-Dec-2010 11:40 pm (UTC)
I want a neater house. I want to write and pursue publication. I want a baby (but it looks like that is in the works--ultrasound a week from today will let me know if things are looking good!). I want to create a successful Etsy shop.

There are a lot of material things I want but those are less important.
31st-Dec-2010 11:44 pm (UTC)
I want joy and laughter in abundance.
1st-Jan-2011 12:00 am (UTC)
Creativity manifesting.
1st-Jan-2011 12:27 am (UTC)
I'm beginning to believe in dreams again. I want to explore them, to know that I don't have to carve them in stone for them to be real or worthy or for me to deserve them. I want to relish in what I find along the way.

And I want to dance more. Bellydance, swing, goofy dancing with my Swiffer wet-jet in my new she-cave when nobody else is there. Yeah, more dancing.
1st-Jan-2011 12:49 am (UTC)
Just this once, everybody lives.
1st-Jan-2011 01:04 am (UTC)
"Just this once, everybody lives."

1st-Jan-2011 01:19 am (UTC)
To be able to file for disability insurance without losing my head, and to have good professional help while doing it, because I am terrified, even though everyone knows I should have done it long ago.
1st-Jan-2011 01:36 am (UTC)
I want explosive delight and warm contentment.

Me, too.
1st-Jan-2011 01:41 am (UTC) - I'm not sure right now.
I've been busy living in the moments, I think, worrying about the right-now or right-close. The long-term I trust to live through. There are so many things out of my control, and the longer from now, the less I can predict. I can set things up for success, but very few of those things are free from outside interference. I have things I want that I'm relatively sure I can't have.

September is my introspective time, for the most part, but I will give this a bit of thought - my eve's plan is to game and game and watch other people drink a lot while I drink only a little.

I hope the best for your year, and for all of your loves close or far.
1st-Jan-2011 01:52 am (UTC)
This upcoming year I want to help my author and artist friends publish their things and be profitable. I want to design, color, and assist in whatever way I can, market, etc to help with their successes.

Personally I will finish draft 1.0 of novel. And I will finish issue 1 of my comic.

Everything else is a work in progress. I need to live fully. And doing that begins in every morning I wake up. :)
1st-Jan-2011 02:11 am (UTC)
I want to learn poi. glib_dichotomy got me started with some good links, and I can already see that this is going to be a very serious rabbit hole for me, but I want. to do. that.

1st-Jan-2011 02:14 am (UTC)
I'd like to learn fire fans, m'self!
1st-Jan-2011 02:16 am (UTC)
You know about this place, right? glib_dichotomy gave me a link to to the beginner poi lessons on this same site and that's what I've been playing with today, but they've got a TON of stuff. I would also like you to learn fans, yes.
1st-Jan-2011 02:52 am (UTC)
"Just this once, everybody lives."


My resolutions this year are the same as last year: "Give more backrubs, get more hugs." The targets are higher.
1st-Jan-2011 04:01 am (UTC)
Mine is very similar to yours, actually. I want to write a story for (at least) every anthology a friend edits for, if not start trying to novel again (yeah, it's a verb now). I need to not be afraid of my own shortcomings in that regard.

I want to keep things neater. I want to cook and bake more often, because damn it, I enjoy it. I want to finish school, pay back my RRSP loan, and then move towards my goal of having my own place and my own company and not let myself sink into crushing despair that I will never have either.

I want to actually strive for the physicality that I mentally want, but thus far have been unwilling to actually work to obtain.

I want to play in a roleplaying game that I love and that inspires me. I want to run my epic game and have it be EPIC.

Most of all, I want to not be bored and to not be boring.
2nd-Jan-2011 07:47 pm (UTC)
I want everyone I know to experience peace and joy in the coming year. That includes people I can't stand, in the hope that they'll be easier to deal with if they're happy.
2nd-Jan-2011 10:01 pm (UTC)
I want to cross-stitch more. I pretty much stopped in 2010, and didn't really pick it back up until after the solstice.
I want to stay with Jack. I want our love to continue to grow and evolve. I want us to love and be loved beautifully, deeply, and sometimes fiercely.
I want to continue to move on from the situations that have caused me pain.
I want to learn to be happy again.

I think I'm going to have to repost this in my own journal.
2nd-Jan-2011 11:37 pm (UTC)
I want for us to be able to afford propane so that the boi can have a hot shower. And so that we don't have to worry about our pipes freezing. Not cooking on a campstove would be nice, too. As it is, I don't use the dryer anyway. But showers would be really nice.

I want more clients, more self-sufficiency. I want jobs that I like.

I want to save my Akbash's hair this spring, then spin it into wool and eventually learn to knit it into socks or a sweater.

I want to go to at least one Gathering this year.

I want to be more authentic in my day-to-day, living in a small town.

I would love to go to my 20-year high school reunion. I'd also like to drop 15 lbs, but I like food and cocktails more than I like that idea.

I really want to not have to hit my parents up for rent money.

I want to do a LOT more firespinning.

If it comes down to one of these? I'd like to be able to make my way in the world doing what I love without having to rely on anyone else.
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