Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong (shadesong) wrote,
Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong

Every so often, I am handed big tremendous things by the universe. I regard these things almost as a dare - "You said you couldn't possibly do X without having Y. Here's Y, Z, and ABCD. What are you gonna do now?" I am constantly presented with situations in which I have no real obstacles and thus no excuse not to excel.

I find this oppressive, and I'm aware of how whiny that sounds. It's just a lot of pressure. A whole damn lot of pressure.

And my blithe response to this tends to be that I don't like when things are handed to me because I don't trust anything I haven't worked for, anything I have not concretely and tangibly earned and earned hard. Dangers untold and hardships unnumbered.

It has randomly just occurred to me that the lesson from the universe may not entirely be "get up off your ass and do it because you have no damn excuse not to and nothing in your way", but also: "learn to trust."
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