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Scheherazade in Blue Jeans
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Saturday Morning Miscellaneous 
20th-Feb-2010 09:30 am
My Empire for Ashes
The deleted scene is not as complete as I'd like, so I'll be fleshing it out a bit today - and I need Adam to show me how to make my playlist into one file so I can send it to sponsors via MegaUpload. I have not forgotten you.

Mobility Argh
There've been a lot of things this week I wanted to do, but they've involved a series of buses and trains, and I get nervous about being out so close to Last Bus. If I'm at a late concert and one bus is ten minutes late, considering the combination of buses and trains I have to take, I could be stranded overnight. Or paying a lot for a taxi.

Solution? I dunno. When I see that I may be out close to Last Bus, I'm poking about for in-town crashspace, just in case. But I swear I feel like a shut-in sometimes, and it makes me cranky. (This post brought to you by two things I wanted to do last night and three tonight.)

State of the 'songbody
I'm pretty sure I've just gone from size 6 to size 4; my jeans are loose enough. Will have to dig up my 4s.

Yes, I was a 14 this time last year.

This whole process is incredibly weird. I said late this summer that I felt like I was in a time-lapse video, the way my body was reshaping; not just losing fat, but building muscle, in a seemingly-accelerated way.

Now I look at myself and - I look Photoshopped.

Seriously. I see lean angles when I am accustomed to seeing curves. I see parts of myself smaller and shaped differently. It is outright bewildering at times, this feeling of surprise and disconnection.

(Which is why I need to go dancing more; it's one of the three things that actually grounds me in my body.)

And it weirds me out because I am accustomed to my body scanning as womanly and, at present, to me, it scans as more girlish. And after these years, girlbody feels alien to me.

BPAL Reviews
The Red Rider: Red leather, red moss, and balsam.
In bottle: That is very red, yes! And leathery!
On me: The balsam lends a bit of sweetness to the leather. This is a sexy man small. <3

The Black Rider: Black leather, oppoponax, tobacco, and black amber.
In bottle: Dark dark dark. And not much throw. This thing has an event horizon.
On me: Very dark indeed. Murky. That would be the oppoponax. Not picking up the tobacco, but definitely getting the rest of it.

Baba Yaga: Spell-soaked herbs and flowers, cold iron, broom twigs, bundles of moss and patchouli root, and moth dust.
In bottle: Soft herbal with a base of patchouli.

The Sea Foams Blood: Blood rising through an ocean wave.
In bottle: My, that's... acrid.
On me: Aquatic + blood note = not for me, clearly.

Today's Plans
I need to make that master to-do list and then knock as many things off it as I can before my Clothesline Project meeting at 4. Tonight, a choice of stuff to do if I can get there and back.
20th-Feb-2010 02:47 pm (UTC)
I really want to try The Red Rider...The Black Rider had that slight vodka-sharpness on me that De Sade used to have.
20th-Feb-2010 02:59 pm (UTC)
FWIW, just wanted to tell you that my husband also lost a lot of weight when he went gluten free. He's put some back on in the years since, but I think that is because so many pre-packaged gluten free products have come out -- high in carbs, etc -- and he eats those a lot now, whereas in the early years he ate mostly just real food, which was better for him. Since you've got the soy issue, and most of the prepackaged seems to have soy, you might never regain. Or, who knows, you might as your body adjusts!!
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20th-Feb-2010 04:00 pm (UTC) - Saturday Morning Miscellaneous
That would be fun. I don't get enough dance in my diet.
20th-Feb-2010 05:12 pm (UTC)
You all should very much do this.

And make it a tradition, so I'll have something else to look forward to for next Wiscon. :)
20th-Feb-2010 03:58 pm (UTC) - Saturday Morning Miscellaneous
So, what two other things ground a 'song to her body? Actually I can likely guess one, so "what's the third?" would be a more gentlemanly question.
20th-Feb-2010 05:13 pm (UTC)
Which is why I need to go dancing more

Next time I'm in town...(which may be sooner than you think.)
20th-Feb-2010 05:14 pm (UTC)
20th-Feb-2010 05:30 pm (UTC)
No promises yet, esp. as my plans are still in major flux. But yes, that wasn't a typo.
20th-Feb-2010 05:30 pm (UTC)
I am intrigued!
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20th-Feb-2010 05:46 pm (UTC)
I sympathize with the body weirdness. When I was living in Japan, I went from a size 14 to a 6 over about four months. I still have trouble recognizing myself in pictures from that time.
21st-Feb-2010 02:06 am (UTC)
Re: going out dancing and Last Bus.

I have a car.

You have crash space, right?

And you'll lace my corset for me?

We should talk.
21st-Feb-2010 04:00 pm (UTC)
21st-Feb-2010 04:07 pm (UTC)
Ego Likeness AND Angelspit are going to be playing at Darq in Salem on 3/27. Advance tickets $13. Sound promising?
21st-Feb-2010 04:10 pm (UTC)
Don't know 'em.. will have to look them up.

Flogging Molly this upcoming Saturday, btw. :)
21st-Feb-2010 04:14 pm (UTC)
Can't unless you spot me the ticket, I'm still unemployed, although working on it. However, I was planning on turning up for Hot Foods if I can manage it. So it's not out of the question.
21st-Feb-2010 05:17 pm (UTC)
Inquiring as to crashspace for you, if you haven't already got it lined up...

I think Hot Foods and Flogging Molly are pretty much simultaneous.
21st-Feb-2010 05:30 pm (UTC)
But Hot Foods starts in the afternoon. FM wouldn't go on until 7 or 8.

I can usually find crash space, but I cannot buy a ticket to FM.
21st-Feb-2010 06:03 pm (UTC)
Amidons say you can crash with them. I can cover your ticket. :) You want?
21st-Feb-2010 06:08 pm (UTC)
I assume offspring can also crash at Amidons? And possibly ride back from HotFoods with them? Because if that works, then... hell yeah. Just because I've seen FM at least four times doesn't mean I don't want to do it again!
21st-Feb-2010 06:12 pm (UTC)
Amidons confirm. I will purchase your ticket. :)
21st-Feb-2010 06:16 pm (UTC)

Did I mention that one of my treasured possessions is a signed-and-dated FM drumstick I caught on my birthday at Avalon in 2006?
21st-Feb-2010 06:18 pm (UTC)
Oh argh damn. Live Nation is sold out!

They said tickets may still be available at the box office, so I can see if I can make it down there tomorrow.
21st-Feb-2010 06:19 pm (UTC)
I was afraid that might be the case.
21st-Feb-2010 04:45 pm (UTC)
...and now I'm jealous. I've been wanting to see them live for ages!
21st-Feb-2010 05:17 pm (UTC)
You should! They're fantastic!
21st-Feb-2010 05:29 pm (UTC)
I was in Austin, TX some years ago for a week and they were playing the day after I left. I was so close. Bah!
21st-Feb-2010 04:44 pm (UTC)
I've never actually had a BPAL scent with a blood note in it. Now I'm curious as to what it smells like!
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