Because hey. I was incapacitated. And a man disregarded what I said about my body, did not do what I had consented to, and did something else to my body instead, without my consent.
So, y'know, no fucking wonder.
Talked to my volunteer coordinator a bit, and she pointed out the fact that I went right to "I should have listened to my instinct about this doctor", and she's right - I'd tell anyone else that it isn't their fault and they shouldn't blame themselves. Because it isn't. And I shouldn't.
So yeah. I am feel pretty damn violated right now.