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The question that faces me right now, more than anything else, is… 
8th-Jul-2009 01:49 pm
Writing - XanaDuMalion
The question that faces me right now, more than anything else, is "What do you want?"

I'm on the threshold of a lot of things right now. The pause; the indrawn breath. Liminal, interstitial, transitional space. It's my move.

What do I want?

That's a really large and dangerous question.
8th-Jul-2009 05:55 pm (UTC)
A question that, for the most part, I've never been able to answer, which is why I've spent 40 years spinning my wheels.
8th-Jul-2009 06:00 pm (UTC)
If Ed Wasser shows up on your doorstep with a sinister-yet-trying-to-look-innocent grin on his face... RUN. ;-)
8th-Jul-2009 06:02 pm (UTC)
Or do the Vir wave.
8th-Jul-2009 06:03 pm (UTC)
Thank you; the image of you standing there with Vir's grin on your face, doing the finger wave, put a huge smile on my face. (Well, that and the synchronicity between these two icons. ;-) )
8th-Jul-2009 06:58 pm (UTC)
Your icon made me *splorfle*.
8th-Jul-2009 07:03 pm (UTC)
Why thank you! The phrase certainly isn't mine, but the icon is; as long as you credit me in the comments, I have no problem with you using it. :-)
8th-Jul-2009 08:34 pm (UTC)
Lolz :-) *purloins all icons*
8th-Jul-2009 07:48 pm (UTC)
Well, there's always two alternatives.
8th-Jul-2009 09:27 pm (UTC)
Heh. When I read this post, my first thought was Kosh whirling on Sheridan and saying "NEVER ask that question!"

(Anyone reading my LJ knows that kitanzi and I are slap in the middle of third season right now.)
8th-Jul-2009 06:13 pm (UTC)
In my 35 + years of existence, I am *just now* beginning to ponder this question (for reals pondering-- not just like 'what do I want for dinner...' pondering) and I have no shame in admitting that it is one of the hardest questions I have ever faced.

I wish us both all the luck in the world.
8th-Jul-2009 06:14 pm (UTC)
I hear you completely.
8th-Jul-2009 06:16 pm (UTC)
Understood possibly more than I ever thought I would understand.
8th-Jul-2009 06:20 pm (UTC)
How do you answer it?
8th-Jul-2009 06:29 pm (UTC)
No clue!
8th-Jul-2009 06:44 pm (UTC)
Yay! I'm in the same spot!
8th-Jul-2009 06:34 pm (UTC)
Right there with you, sister.
8th-Jul-2009 06:51 pm (UTC)
Having JUST tackled this question - yes. Yes, it's very large and dangerous. Also, exciting and freeing. Good luck with it!
8th-Jul-2009 07:18 pm (UTC)
I remember tackling this question right after I finished my vocational-rehab and was getting comfortable living with vision loss.

8th-Jul-2009 07:24 pm (UTC)
So, what do you want?
8th-Jul-2009 07:24 pm (UTC)
That story I was going to write but fell in the face of the Deadline Beast? That very question plays a central part, word for word.

Questions don't get much larger or more dangerous. They also don't get more necessary. Answer it, if only for yourself.
8th-Jul-2009 07:44 pm (UTC)
Oh yeah, is it ever.

I have some idea of some things I want, but as for the larger aspects of the question? Ha ha ha!
8th-Jul-2009 10:07 pm (UTC)

For me that question is immediately followed by: and what, of the multitude of possibilities, can I do?

The first question is easy.. the second, less so...
9th-Jul-2009 01:54 am (UTC)
Actually, I'm still working on "Who are you?" and "tell me that it really matters?"

"What do I want?" comes in way in the back of the pack to those.

9th-Jul-2009 02:39 am (UTC)
Weird, I am too, kinda. Figuring a bunch of stuff out, about my employment situation, about my love life, about my physical and mental health.

Come to think of it, that might be why I'm so damned depressed right when I feel like I should be completely happy. Or, it might just be hormonal.
9th-Jul-2009 03:46 am (UTC)
I grok.
9th-Jul-2009 03:51 am (UTC)
For as large as it is, it is also very small.

What would solve your needs? If your needs are met, what's left?

< advice on internet worth precisely what you paid for it > Mind the noun in the original question. You certainly are no island alone in the sea but you need to put yourself first here.< /advice >

I have struggled to answer that question for a long time, especially as my desires change. Atm, I'm fairly pleased with my efforts to create the life I want to have.
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