Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong (shadesong) wrote,
Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong

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Open letter to Rose

There's a letter on the desktop
that I dug out of a drawer
the last truce we ever came to
in our adolescent war...

"Your old friend comes in here all the time," my hairstylist in Florida said.
"Which friend?"
"The one who's a librarian? She sees Michele. She always asks about you."

When I left the stylist, I left my e-mail address and phone number with her. For the next time Rose asks.

Rose, I miss you. I thought when I started writing this that I'd list off things I miss (eviscerate your memory, here's a scene...), but it feels too personal for an open letter.

Just - I miss you. And one of the only things I wish was different about my life nowadays is that I wish you were in it.

(I also wish I had a pony. But I wish you were still here more.)

I know you know I have an LJ. I don't know if you read me. I don't know if you'll see this. Hell, I don't know if you actually want to be back in touch, or if it's just morbid curiosity.

But if there needs to be a first step, I'll take it. And my door has never been closed to you, not once in these years without you - but if it helps to hear it again, here it is.

I miss you. Come home.

"...I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was twelve. Jesus, does anyone?"
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