And the touch back - yes. you were there. Yes, you matter, mattered; yes, you are held in memory. Fly in amber.
I stand in the center of the circle, trailing my hand along all points - Jeff to other Jeff to Newt and Grey to...
And I don't know if that's normal at all - moebius strip, time loop, Klein bottle, the need to be in touch with my entire life at all times. Know myself by knowing who I was and where I've been, not just who I am now, not just who I'm becoming. All times at once.
I'm not so much with the sleeping tonight.