"See this. Look at this. This is what you're getting into. This is what you are signing on for. Be aware of what you are signing on for."
Because if they can't handle the worst of me, they should back out now, before anyone gets hurt.
My brain is weird, but has internal logic.
Abandonment complex much? Yeah.
But if you can handle me at my most difficult, if you love me when I'm rough and bitchy and depressed and angry and sick - sick all the damn time, though that isn't something I can control - then I know you'll stay.
And I have flares of this. Spikes at random points.
I need to work on not frontloading it so hard.
But I want to be honest, and you need to know what you're signing on for.