Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong (shadesong) wrote,
Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong

Wishlist Meme

There's a meme going around where you post a wishlist of ten things on your LJ, and wander around looking for the wishlists of others, seeing if you can grant anyone's wishes. Random anythings, from an icon to a story to a sweater to whatever.

Which is a nifty idea. I approve. Someone wants a book I have a spare of, I'm more than happy to send it on.

But I really can't do it.

Look, I have wishlists. They're linked on my sidebar. I would love to get stuff, yes, absolutely! :)

But when I get to what I really want more than anything...

1. I want to be healthy.
2. I want sibylla and dark_blade and all of my other friends who aren't doing well physically, to be healthy.
3. I want my friends who are unemployed or underemployed to have jobs they love.
4. I have friends who've had incredibly traumatic things happen to them recently. I want these things to not have happened.
5. I have friends in other cities who are terribly lonely. I want them to have what they need.
6. Financially - I want all of my friends to have everything they need and most of what they want.

Can you do these things? Gods, I wish you could. I so wish you could.

Yeah, I want new bookcases and a TiVo-DVDR. Sure I do. I want more books.

But those first six - no one can do that. And that's what frustrates me to tears. That's what I really want. More than anything else in the world. And no one can give me - us - that.

I am chipper and whimsical a lot of the time. I've got to be philosophical about my condition, y'know? And it's not an act. Emotionally, I do okay a lot of the time.

But this - not just me, but so many of my friends - it's not fucking fair.

Aaaaand I'm done now.
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