325mg may or may not control my seizures (for a few months, I though 300 was), but it gives me brainfog and it twists all my words up, and that is the single worst side effect for me. Making writing, which should be effortless, often-difficult and fraught with serious problems. You have no idea how much I have to delete and reype stuff. No idea. No idea how much concentration and energy is takes just to write, to do the one thing that defines me. Not all of the time. But this entire goddamn week, certainly.
I need my fucking words back. I don't care what else happens to me, side-effect-wise. Nausea, dizziness, joint pain, they all make life a main in the ass.
But I need my fucking words back.