My brain gets horribly fogged, tangled, brambled. I've written here while I'm like this. But if the path is clear - if I can access my writerbrain, I can hold that connection open. And my writerbrain is crystal-clear.
It's just that I can't always reach it.
Interestingly enough, the chanting during the ceremony calmed me completely. I was getting all awfully brainfidgety during lunch, all Mexican-jumping-bean, but that calmed me, and I came back up and used the nonfiction part of my writerbrain, and I think and hope that maybe I did the event justice. But now I'm tangly again.
The worst part is when I can almost see Story, but can't... quite... access it.
But when that door opens... my brain just works differently.
This merits study, I believe.