Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong (shadesong) wrote,
Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong

My immortality

A man tells his stories so many times that he becomes the stories. They live on after him.

And in that way, he becomes immortal.

(That's likely a paraphrase.)

That's from Big Fish, which I made my parents watch last night. Dad was amused off and on; it reminded him a bit of his father, who Elayna is named for.

Mom got it, I think. That this movie is me in the way that some books, some songs, are me.

I am a storyteller. Sometimes, as with my Elayna stories, I'm telling the truth in a theatrical way. Because that is what comes naturally to me. And then there's my fiction...

When I first saw this movie. I was speechless. Because it was me.

Because it's not just my immortality - regarding Walking on Water, it's Layne's, it's Hal's. People that would pass unremembered. "Just another overdose", the Everclear song says.

With Shayara... there is this world in my head, and there are these people in it. And if I manage to get it out into our world, who knows? Fifty years from now, a new reader could find a familiarity, a kinship, with a character, with an arc of the story, a corner of the world. I am creating a home here. I am putting this here so that people will know, not that I was here, but that Julia was, that Capri and Halloran were.

If I am anything, I am story. And at least a little of that will live beyond me.

I think my mom actually got that.

This is who I am.
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