Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong (shadesong) wrote,
Magical Truthsaying Bastard Shadesong
shadesong

Headspace

Exhaustion.

Whipsawed.

Perpetually confused.

Dealing with oncoming work-f00. Dealing with greatly missing my faraway Master (not getting to see him til late August!). Dealing with very little seeing-of-friends.

Dealing with mental fog. Dealing with terror regarding medical shit. (Today = 150 mg of Lamictal in the morning, 150 at night, plus 250mg of Keppra, plus a folic acid pill). Dealing with the attendant constant exhaustion and physical weakness.

Dealing with back-to-school... gearing up for all of the stuff Miss Kid needs to do.

Dealing with the fact that I'm not going to get a puppy. Not because yendi's not cool with it - but because I'm forced to admit that I can't handle taking care of a pet. Dealing with the fact that I probably won't be able to help out consistently with Elayna's after-school program. Dealing with the fact that I'm not going to be able to handle ballet classes. Dealing with the fact that I can either go out to dinner or take my evening walk, but not both.

I guess the headspace problem referenced in the previous post is because I just don't have any room for that right now. You already know. I have been there. I have worked through shit. I don't have enough room in my head to revisit it.

I have to make choices about what can be in my headspace, because I am now limited.

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