April 20th, 2006


Thor's Day

Happy birthday to eyes_of_cyrene!

Hello to, um, whoever Joule didn't catch. Oy. (Yes, I know Semagic notifies you, but Semagic only works on inferior computers.)

The usual omnipresent effects. I took a walk immediately after taking the Meds of Doom; this has mostly worked, I think, as I only have a little bit of the brainfog.

My everything hurts! Actually, just my legs. Stressed the backs of my thighs with the unusual level of housework yesterday. I need to learn how to pace myself. The problem is that, with my particular condition, my capabilities are highly variable. I do not yet know if there's any way to tell how much activity will be too much on any given day. I don't know is there *is* any way to tell.

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Housework is contagious.
Elayna was so impressed by the tidiness of my bedroom that she cleaned hers. Like, before I woke up. What a nifty kid. :) The only areas she didn't cover = the mounds of stuffed animals on the far side of her bed (must buy bins) and her dresser, but I didn't do my dresser, either. That's our mutual goal for today.

Other Goals
* More on Jessa's story. Yes, I should be working on Walking on Water, but Ray (one of the senseis at the Sanctuary) wants to talk.

* Some filing.

* That Pottery Place in Decatur, to paint tiles for the grandmas for Mother's Day. I actually remembered in time!

* Target, to spend Elayna's gift cards on summer clothes. And maybe get some bins for the stuffed animals.
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This is your brain. This is your brain on characters your readers will only ever meet in retrospect. ^#&*^)^&.


So. Jessamyn ni'Tamra, later Jessamyn Donnelly, the character most people will only know as Capri's Mom and Fenris's Dead Lover. I seem to be writing her life story. Or at least sizable chunks of it.

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...and, for the curious, the bit that demanded to be written today is something I've never focused on before - where Jessa went when she fled the city after Fenris broke her heart. I knew that they spent a chunk of time apart, as it was just too painful for them to be anywhere near each other. Fenris had to stay in the city, obviously, as the Kirayth were in their first few years, and they needed him. So Jessa went. And really, Jessa's only ever been a few places in the human world. She doesn't go to Annie, because Annie's having a hard time dealing with what went down between Fenris and Jessa. So she goes to the obvious place - the Sanctuary. And she and sensei Ray can have a few of the conversations, and, well, some other stuff, that they could not have when she was underage and his student.

That isn't the focus of her time there; she teaches, too, and her example is part of why Shawn decided to stay on and teach, some seven years later. But her conversations with Ray are good for her. Help her work things out and make some painful decisions.

In the end, the man who comes to bring her home is the one who wins her. Was that the right decision? Well, nobody's perfect. She makes it work, but there's always that twist in her heart when she looks at Fenris; there's always the wish that it could be him.
Fizzgig! - velvetsteel


Crossposted from my KoL Clan message board (go Food Knights!):

I am desperately trying to blow up a clockwork chef & bartender so I can freakin' ascend, like, sometime this year. I am very out of ingredients for stuff!

If you guys send me ingredients, I will cook stuff up and send it to you.

*is so tired of waiting*

Seriously, man. I ran out of dry noodles. I had, like 40+ bunches of dry noodles. And the chef isn't even clanking yet. *aggrieved sigh*

I'm Shadesong over there, too.
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Magical Drama Queen Roxy!

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*returns from afternoon out with child*

*madly shoves stuff into clockwork chef-in-box*


BOOM, baby!

*does little victory dance*

Now for the bartender...

EDIT: I need basic bottles of things. And people who have sent me raw materials - let me know what stuff you want!

EDIT at 9:30: Thanks to booze infusions by nanofishie, blazepoet, unwilly, spoothbrush, and yendi, the bartender is gone daddy gone!

Hell. I wish I'd counted how many drinks I had to make. It was about 150 martnis *alone*, 50+ bloody beers, 'bout that many each of all the basic drinks. I recommend the clockwork bartender if you're planning a nice leisurely run up to level 20something, dude. Me, I'm going Disco Bandit in the morning. I am *so* not touching KoL any more tonight.
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Capri - xanadumalion

Goals vs. Reality

Posted earlier about the goals; here's what actually happened...

* Played KoL. :P

* More cleaning! Living room and, yes, the dresser.

* Nice walk.

* Writing about writing.

* Actual writing.

Side note: It is hard to write about this period in their lives.... Fenris and Jessa broke up for reasons very similar to those that caused Adam's-and-my breakup back in 2002. Very similar. But Adam and I never left each other, physically... and Adam and I got back together. And Jessa and Fenris never, ever do.

So when I write about her breaking down in Ray's arms, having driven clear across the country holding herself together impeccably and then coming totally unglued.... I'm writing about those emotions, and I'm processing them like I didn't get to back then. Like Jessa, I've always had to be the strong one. Unlike Jessa, I had no one to hold me while I cried - no one whose intentions were good.

* Mommy-and-daughter day! Picked her up from chess club, then swung by That Pottery Place and painted tiles for the grandmas. It was a bit too early for dinner when we got out, so we went shopping - Square Roots and Squash Blossom. And in Squash Blossom, she talked me into getting the most preposterous pair of shoes I have ever owned. (Keep in mind that I own Fluevogs.)

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She did it because she wants to wear them in a year or two. Punk kid.

They're freakin' adorable, though. And silly. And will be warm in Boston winters.

Shopping was fun.... nothing there would fit her, obviously, but I got the running commentary of what's "too plain" and what's "omigodgorgeous!!!", and I looked at her holding dresses up to herself in the mirror and saw her-in-five-years. *grin*

Then Noodle for dinner and, of course, JavaMonkey for desert, and now we are home. And my wrist hurts. :( But! Wonderful day. :)
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SillyMe - Photognome

Thankful Thursday

I always forget to do this until I see it on my friendspage! And I'm listing "people who love me" in one chunk to challenge myself, as I could fill the list just with names; Adam, Spooky, Kires, et cetera...

I'm thankful for...

1. The worlds in my brain
2. Self-awareness
3. The people who love me/the people I love
4. The freedom to start to work with my body's limitations instead of fighting against them
5. My amazing daughter
6. New flirtations
7. Backrubs and snugglehugs (it was a great party!)
8. Cats who cuddle
9. Singing and dancing for no particular reason
10. Iced chai

Okay, let's do more!

11. Painting with the kid
12. Long walks in perfect weather
13. Being wanted in Boston (and I'm not talking sexually)
14. Vosges!
15. Red suede boots!
16. Parties where everyone in the room knows all the words to "Yoda" and "Title of the Song", and, in the latter, will actually physically drop to their knees to elicit a crowd response
17. That charge in the air when you're about to be kissed for the first time - this weekend wasn't my first time kissing slipjig, that was my previous Boston party, but it still feels like that. The uncertainty, but knowledge that this is what you do next. You know?
18. Writing time!
19. The infodump stage of making new friends
20. "Thinking of you" e-mails
21. New books
22. Writerly collaboration energy
23. Spring!

I have more, but right now...

24. Sleeping with my husband.

EDIT: Someone on my friendslist (locked post) just did this re: things about her body, so I will too!

1. My eyes are big and shift color, greybluegreen and even, rarely, violet or brown, always with a greysilver halo... my eyelashes are long and thick. My eyes are my favorite part.
2. The small of my back. It's in the end credits of a movie, it's so nice. (manifestress, what's that movie called again?)
3. My calves, which have always been strong and well-shaped, no matter my weight.
4. My hair - growing back and thickening again, curlier than ever; my daughter likes to play with it.
5. My mutant toes!
6. My butt! I have been told that I have an extraordinary butt. I choose my jeans accordingly. (I was standing on a chair on Saturday, saying goodbye to perldiver, and lbitw was having so much fun with the view that perldiver positioned me a little better for him...
7. My wrists, ever since haikujaguar told me how strong they looked.
8. My grace - when the drugs aren't bitchslapping me, I can still move like a dancer. I enjoy bending, stretching; I enjoy being in improbable positions with perfect comfort.
9. My height. I'm not like normal people - here is your instant visual notice!
10. My laugh. Not my polite laugh - my real laugh, the one that startled mgrasso this weekend. It's not cute or dainty; it comes from my whole body at once!

Now you do it.
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