May 22nd, 2005



I just hate having blank spots on my LJcalendar.

So here's a picture of me in a dress.

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In other news, Miss EJ now has some social studies workbooks for to be working on in the next two weeks, as I feel that her current social studies skillz are insufficient. Also, a Morse Code kit, because she has "always wanted to learn Morse Code!" and it'll be a nice reward for doing some social studies stuff.

Now I go clean my house.
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Sick Hippo


It wasn't til docorion voiced concern about it today that I finally managed to parse that I've been debilitatively exhausted for nearly a full week now.

A week.

Well, that's not right.

I mean, recovering from an active week, sure. But it shouldn't take a week to recover. And I haven't had any other non-medicine-related physical issues that would impact me in this way.

I'm at a point where I'm really wondering if anything can be done, on any medicine, that will allow me to function on a day-to-day basis. I'm not saying that all depressed-like. I'm fine today, moodwise. I'm saying it all practical-like. Because I have seizures at the level right below this, on Trileptal. It was the same with the Lamictal; on a level low enough to function, I had seizures. Little bit higher, I'm incapacitated. Same here on Trileptal. And Keppra and Topamax aren't options for varying reasons. What are my odds here?

docorion asked, a while back, why I was on such high doses, given my general mass, or lack thereof. It's because I seize on the doses that my body can handle. Much, much less frequently. Like once in two months. But it happens.

One of the things that my secret has to do with = me not having to drive anymore, at least not having to drive much (but not at all if we can help it, and there will be a lot of helping-it), and definitely not having to drive Miss Kid to school and back. If I don't have to drive, I'm fine with taking the lower dose and having one bimonthly seizure or so. I can handle that, as long as I'm not putting anyone at risk.

I really don't know what to do. I am just trying to be patient.