October 29th, 2004

Quiet - PhotoGnome

:)

It was good to see mightywombat.

And everyone else, too. Returning from the bathroom, I just kinda stopped. Leaned against a pole. Just looked at everyone from a little bit of a distance. static_eddie was the only one who noticed; he gave me a questioning look, and I held up my hands as if framing a picture. He got it.

Everyone was so happy. I just had to stand and look and take the mental picture.

More tomorrow.
Hearth

Freya's Day

Administration
Happy birthday to eng1ne!
Happy early birthday to rafaela and nukewolf!
Hello to new reader dfi_media!

Ai-ya.
status does not say that parts of LJ are down.

But parts of LJ are down.

This peeves me.

Medical
Just nausea so far. Last night, I had the seeing-trails thing, so I had to keep my head stationary a bit, and I just felt... weird in the head a bit. EDIT: Eeeee... scatterbraininess, memory issues. Teh Dizzy. ALSO EDIT: Oh! More from last night: When I went to bed, I had massive flashing lights goin' on. Closed eyes, big flashing lights. Like powerful strobe lights.

RSVP
static_eddie, you did not respond. You lie like a thing what lies on the floor, you do.

Aagh
Finally finally Friday. Basically, I haven't had a day of downtime in at least two weeks. I shall blissfully rest Saturday-during-the-day.

Wearing
Black short-sleeved sweater, jeans, Beaker panties, "It's All About Me" socks, 8-hole Docs.

Reading
A shitload of magazines.

Writing
The post-girl-on-girl-action bit. After Capri & Julia Do It. Julia is invited to stay for dinner, and she has a good talk with Halloran regarding the abstract concept of a destined ruler, and how not everyone sees her as a demigoddess - some people just see her as a person that they'd like to get to know.

My favorite Halloran line from this: "Me? No, I'll just be up here with my stir-fry and my plausible deniability."

Planning
Tonight: Downtime.
Saturday: Downtime, then get-together for thryn.
Sunday: Downtime, hanging out with kires and springdew, twickertweating!

You?
Fizzgig! - velvetsteel

*sigh*

I am in the middle of sorting something out in my head that is too complex to be held in my head, but that I can't really talk about in full, because about 2/3 of it is Other People's Stuff.

I hate it when that happens.
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Quiet - PhotoGnome

concern

"I worry about you," Wombat said.

I don't hear that a lot. Probably some people think that... but really, not a lot of people tell me. (Probably some people do, but my brain isn't holding onto that.)

We talked about how my daily list of side effects concerns him - that I'm dealing with a lot on a daily basis that normal people just don't have to deal with ever.

We talked about my weight, how he worries about the weight loss. "You can feel my hip bones," I said. "I can see your hip bones," he said. "And I can feel all of your bones." He ran his fingers up my ribcage. Washboard. Xylophone. Ridges just under skin. Ran his hand up my spine, fingers catching on bone there as well.

When my eyes and head went all weird, he and kaliwohi were watching, were concerned.

This sort of thing makes me pathetically happy. Not side effects. Just - that someone cares and worries. I mean, I know that yendi does, that kires does - they handle it in the same way, the quiet and unobtrusive doing stuff that I can't do. I know Master does.

But... I guess I've been so out of contact with other people that I tend to feel that only the people in this tight tiny circle, only those who come to see me, or call... that they're the only people who think about me, who worry.

So last night meant a lot. Just the worry in Wombat's eyes. Not that I want him to worry. But it's reassuring that someone does.
Sick Hippo

Seizure Dog!

Hearth

Troops

Remember this summer? When we had a stormtrooper in our office?

He came back. I took his picture. He gave me candy.

:)
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