I fake lucid really well. But.
I don't know what to do.
Had a lot of Important talking yesterday in which I struggled with concepts, trying to parse, with help, what they are outside my head. How perceptions deal with reality. How half the time I feel like I have a disability and the other half I'm saying to myself "of course you don't. ashlupa has a disability, dark_blade has a disability. You don't have a disability." But then I feel like I *do*...
But bheansidhe helped. She said "You have something wrong in your brain. It is something that shows up clearly on an MRI. That is a physical disability."
So. Less self-doubt there now.
That's one example.