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I am having a bad body day. This happens; the weather is a… 
30th-Oct-2013 07:23 pm
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I am having a bad body day. This happens; the weather is a contributing factor today. It is cold and grey and drizzly, and I woke up in pain, that type of ache where you find yourself subconsciously trying to stretch the pain away, as if you were wound too tightly and just needed a little unwinding, muscles too tight. Headache too. And my hands.

My hands almost always have a slight tremor, just enough to keep me from fine detail work. I will never be a surgeon, but most days I can knit. Today's a day I wouldn't have attempted lace knitting. On a day like today, I don't do anything that requires a lot of fine motor control.

But I still have to eat.

And as I finished scooping leftovers into a bowl for dinner, as I turned with the bowl in one hand, the muscles of my hand jumped, and the bowl escaped, exploding into shards on the floor. Shards I then could not even pick up because my hands were shaking.

I breathed, there on all fours, tremendously frustrated. I love my bowls, and they do not sell them individually. Dammit. And dammit I miss my daughter, and dammit the writing project I'm embarking on will be wrenching, and dammit Max keeps trying to get over here where all these shards are because there's sausage in with the shattered ceramic, so no time for self-pity, time for the vacuum (which hurts my back, but I will deal with that; my little old man cat is the priority here).

I have another bowl of food now, and I'm sitting and dealing with my back pain and verifying that this bowl is not available on replacements.com, dammit.

Sometimes this is what disability looks like: eight plates and seven bowls.
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30th-Oct-2013 11:40 pm (UTC)
Don't forget to check eBay. You never know.
31st-Oct-2013 12:34 am (UTC)
And Kijiji! I have had great luck with Kijiji.
31st-Oct-2013 12:52 am (UTC)
I hear ya. Today is painful, darn you weather. I decided to reheat my dinner in the tupperware because it's easier to grip and won't break if I drop it. I hope tomorrow is better for both of us!

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31st-Oct-2013 01:23 am (UTC)
*sigh*

I can relate to bad body days... I can't even remember the last time I had a day without some pain, or enough sleep.

And hell, none of my crockery matches either. Yay for thrift & charity shops, I suppose, at least I can claim it's intentional and not get too upset when something gets broken. [It's a lie though, but what's the point of buying sets when you know half of them will be shards sooner rather than later.]
31st-Oct-2013 01:23 am (UTC)
I hear you. I'm sorry today was crap, I hope tomorrow is wonderful for you.
31st-Oct-2013 02:56 am (UTC)
Some days suck. And we keep going. Because that is what we do.

I think there's a way to make a request at Replacements, when you can brain and have better hands. There's stuff they know about, but do not have because they did not think anyone was looking for it. They did not have my great grandmother Blanche's exact pattern, but did not want it because no one had asked for it (because you don't have it on your website, dipshits). It would not surprise me if they have a trove of data from "we won't buy this from you now" email exchanges.
31st-Oct-2013 03:13 am (UTC)
*hugs* if you want them.

If you saved the shards, if you want to, I have seen some amazing art made out of broken china.
31st-Oct-2013 11:29 am (UTC)
Here is a thing: I have a dear friend who can not do much, but what she can do is shop for *ANYTHING* even things you think will never be found, on your budget, all through the internet. If you tell me the pattern name I'll have her go looking. It is her favorite thing in the world to do, by a lot.
31st-Oct-2013 01:50 pm (UTC)
:( I know how it goes, all too well. I'm just a klutz: it runs in my family. My mother gave me a set of 3 bowls after she broke one (she's since upgraded to Corelleware, which is lighter and less breakable). So now I have six in two different patterns, not counting the random bowls I make and have leftover from other incomplete sets.

You should consider getting a Dirt Devil or Dustbuster or other little hand-held vacuum for the quick and small jobs!
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31st-Oct-2013 06:46 pm (UTC)
Yup. Sometimes it's not the Big Shit of a disability that gets you. Sometimes it's the constant flow of Little Shit that does us in.

*hug on tap when you want it*

I hope it's easing.

*moar hug*
31st-Oct-2013 06:55 pm (UTC)
I hear you on all the "dammit".

I had a hard fall on Tuesday, and my hip is still killing me. The weather is not helping.
8th-Nov-2013 04:36 pm (UTC)
Lovely writing; true and poignant.
If it helps any at all, I don't have eight of anything any more.
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