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Scheherazade in Blue Jeans
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One more quick shot. 
8th-Feb-2011 10:50 am
Circus Girl without a safety net
I am in liminal space right now. I am on multiple thresholds.

Nothing is bad (almost), everything is good (almost); it's just - everything is going to be different.

I've not much been talking about this online because the ways in which everything's changing are so internal and hard to conceptualize. What I can say is that my future looks really a lot different now than it did two seasons ago. So... bear with me as I figure me out.

EDIT: I said this in a comment, but I'm putting it here to so no one else worries! Obligatory reassurance that all of my relationships, including my mother/child relationship, are rock-solid.

The only thing that is not good is medical stuff. In that there may be more of it. That is frustrating, no lie, and some of the liminality has to do with "what do I do to best accommodate this and still have an awesome life." But, y'know, I am committed to having an awesome life, and my life has exponentially more awesome in it than it did two seasons ago, and more to come. So even that is just a thing to be acknowledged and passed through on my way to awesome stuff that is different from and, yes, awesomer than the future I was already going to have.

I am in a territory that has no map, and I am writing the map as I go... but, as necessary as maps are, they tend to define the territory. So I am taking my time, to make sure I do it right!
Comments 
8th-Feb-2011 04:02 pm (UTC)
I hope they're thresholds into wonderful, wonderful places.
8th-Feb-2011 04:05 pm (UTC)
I am pretty sure they all are, even though one in particular could be a rough journey to that wonderful place.

(Obligatory reassurance that all of my relationships, including my mother/child relationship, are rock-solid.)
8th-Feb-2011 04:34 pm (UTC)
Whew, ok. I got scared there for a minute for all of you.

But I second the wishes that this lead you into joy and wonder. :)

8th-Feb-2011 04:53 pm (UTC)
Phew. I got scared for a sec, too. Good to hear. Liminal moments are...kinda freaky, no matter how good they wind up. Hang in there.
8th-Feb-2011 05:02 pm (UTC)
Good luck
8th-Feb-2011 05:25 pm (UTC)
There is something about that cat that makes it want, most definitely, to stand upon the spinning plates. It may not be comfortable, but you can see the stars from there, and gather up your strength to leap.

(Or, if you're my cat, it's not stars but the lovely unshredded shower curtain beckoning, but you get the general idea...)
8th-Feb-2011 06:03 pm (UTC) - *hugs*
I hope your liminal space leads to a bright new dawn. You deserve a good break.
8th-Feb-2011 06:14 pm (UTC)
I've been feeling that way lately myself. Right now it's just stuff I'm thinking about, nothing definite, but it's there. Good luck!
8th-Feb-2011 07:12 pm (UTC)
We should start a club.
8th-Feb-2011 07:13 pm (UTC)
Ha! If it meant I got to see you more often, I'd be all for it. :) Or it could be an internet club, I GUESS. But in that case, we kind of already DO.
8th-Feb-2011 08:05 pm (UTC)
An Internet club with meetings!

The biggest problem is that I don't drive yet (soon, I hope? just not yet). WHY ARE THERE NO TRAINS.
8th-Feb-2011 07:16 pm (UTC)
The League of Liminal Lads and Lasses.
8th-Feb-2011 07:17 pm (UTC)
Love it.
8th-Feb-2011 08:05 pm (UTC)
THIS.
8th-Feb-2011 11:57 pm (UTC)
I hope the health issues resolve in the positive, and I am glad your relationships are going well.
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