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I tore out my heart's seams to make room for you, and I reshaped… 
26th-Nov-2010 12:35 pm
I tore out my heart's seams to make room for you,
and I reshaped them around the tangle of your limbs around mine,
over the beat of your heart and your drum.

We don't keep sugar on the counter. We have the big canister of sugar, and we do have a sugar bowl, but we keep it in a cabinet when not having parties that involve coffee consumption; neither Adam nor I use sugar in our coffee.

For the last two months, the sugar dish, white with a silver dragonly-wing pattern, has resided on our counter.

sindrian uses sugar in his coffee, you see.

There are big seismic changes when you fall in love, yes, and when someone becomes a part of your life, your world. But then also there are little things, like a sugar bowl left out because he will be there and he will want sugar, he will be here today and tomorrow and Wednesday and will want sugar.

This morning, curled around me post-sex (and we curl around each other like a root system, like mangroves, like we grew together complementary and twining), he told me he loved me, and following with "with all my soul, with all my heart, and with all my might" - in Hebrew, from a prayer.

It is remarkable, this. We did not really see it coming. We thought we'd just date while he was in town, have fun, and then if he comes back we'd reevaluate. Heh. No. He quickly and bewilderingly and wonderfully became part of my heart.

This is an amazing world, truly.

He will be here for one more month, and then he's off to Cincinnati to finish his degree, to Oakland for an internship (we hope). I will keep the sugar bowl out.
26th-Nov-2010 05:46 pm (UTC)
In the Cincinnati Art Museum, the one at the top of the park, there is a wooden corner cabinet/closet from the 1800s. It is wonderfully constructed to resemble a small house with a slantted, shingled roof and eaves. On the doors of the wonderful carvings, which the currator mistakenly attributes to Freya and Thor; they are in fact Frigg and Odon.

When you speak of the heart and the hearth, of your limbs intwined, of the things love will do unbiden, I hear the songs of Frigg in my soul stream.

When he returns to Cincinnati, send him to the museum to see the cabinet. I would be surprised if it did not speak to him.

May love flow like mana from Heaven,
26th-Nov-2010 05:52 pm (UTC)
Blessed be.
26th-Nov-2010 06:16 pm (UTC)
Awww. That is some high-quality schmoop, right there. Bless you!
26th-Nov-2010 06:23 pm (UTC)
Anyone out there not see this coming? Show of hands?

*crickets chirp*

That's about what I thought. Congratulations to everyone. :)
26th-Nov-2010 07:14 pm (UTC)
*raises hand*

But then, I missed the whole relationship due to my moving and such.
26th-Nov-2010 11:19 pm (UTC)
*shrug* I've only met them in person at StrowlerCon, so . . . Yeah. I dunno.
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26th-Nov-2010 11:20 pm (UTC)

I dunno what to say, other than that I was entirely unsurprised by this announcement.
29th-Nov-2010 03:32 pm (UTC)
(Mark meant he didn't see it coming at the point where I didn't see it coming. But he wasn't surprised to see it develop. I clarified via e-mail!)
29th-Nov-2010 06:33 pm (UTC)
*puzzled* Clarified via email to him, or to me? If to me, then I didn't receive an email from you.
29th-Nov-2010 06:58 pm (UTC)
To/from him.
29th-Nov-2010 07:11 pm (UTC)

OT: a friend sent me this link today, and I immediately thought of you.


26th-Nov-2010 09:23 pm (UTC)
I thought it was likely. But that was internal hypothesis, based on what knowledge I have of each of you. In an an odd, difficult to explain way, it's reassuring to know my instincts weren't leading me stray.

Congrats. :)
26th-Nov-2010 06:58 pm (UTC)
This is beautiful. A perfect description of the way the familiar fabric of your life reweaves itself in so many small ways when love comes.
26th-Nov-2010 07:01 pm (UTC)
And it was effortless. I wasn't expecting how effortless it was.
26th-Nov-2010 07:14 pm (UTC)
It's nice when it is effortless.

Mind you, I know people for whom effortless is deeply scary.
26th-Nov-2010 08:24 pm (UTC)
Heh. That's me, certainly. I get all "what aren't they telling me, that it's this perfect". An ex of mine still tell the story that until our third date, we thought the other was one of those mimic-folk shaping their likes to be compatible to your own, and so we worried about trusting the relationship. Then on the third date, we tried to split a pizza. The fact that she likes absolutely revolting pizza (and she thinks the same of mine!) reassured us both that the other was in fact a real person with her own independent will. [laughing] And then we could get on with the relationship.

Which is to say, congratulations, shadesong!
26th-Nov-2010 07:49 pm (UTC)
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26th-Nov-2010 09:52 pm (UTC)
This is Excellent!
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29th-Nov-2010 03:31 pm (UTC)
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27th-Nov-2010 12:27 am (UTC)
I know the prayer in question. :) Is part of why he said it to me!
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29th-Nov-2010 03:31 pm (UTC)
Nope, none taken! :)
27th-Nov-2010 12:24 am (UTC)
That's some powerful magic YOU'RE throwing around to the rest of us, just sharing that. Thank you.
27th-Nov-2010 12:57 am (UTC)
That is so lovely. I'm happy for you!
27th-Nov-2010 01:57 am (UTC)
This is lovely. It is lovely to watch, too.
27th-Nov-2010 03:27 am (UTC)
Love is amazing, and bewildering, and beautiful!
27th-Nov-2010 12:46 pm (UTC)
that's wicked cool
27th-Nov-2010 03:51 pm (UTC)
It's a lovely window into love, if I can be allowed the lovely-love pairing.

I'm not poly. I'm strictly one-to-one. And I hope you can forgive me for throwing this into an otherwise purely happy and wonderful story. But I am curious, and as you've made this part of your life a (mostly) open book. Things like this don't affect just the two of you, I'm guessing. It changes the dynamic of all of your relationships. Mark and Adam especially.

In an ideal world, they are happy for your happy. I'm assuming as much here. I'm hoping it's that simple for all of you. Is it?

Also, if this is too nosey, please understand that you can completely ignore the question.
27th-Nov-2010 04:02 pm (UTC)
One of the absolute joys of this particular new relationship is that it hasn't been disruptive to my existing relationships. They can be! Often! But this one has been remarkably seamless. Adam's kinda grateful for all the help. :) Mark was unsettled to begin with, but he genuinely likes sindrian, so getting past that was easier than it would've been if they didn't like each other like they do.

The thing is balance. With a new relationship, it's tempting to be all OMG NEW LOVE! and unintentionally deprive existing partners. sindrian's malleable schedule actually helped a lot, because I get to spend a lot of time with him without taking any time at all away from Adam and Mark. It would be harder if he was also 9-5 - more competition for limited time and energy.

(And yes, happy for my happy! Compersion is.)

Edited at 2010-11-27 04:03 pm (UTC)
27th-Nov-2010 04:20 pm (UTC)
Thanks for shedding some light on this. The balance in my one-partner life is sometimes difficult to achieve, so seeing it swing with a multiple-partner family just boggles my mind. That's not meant as an insult. It's just not my world and even if I wanted it to be, I'm not sure I have the logistical chops to make it work.

Congratulations :) Many wishes for continued balance and serenity and an easy parting when numath heads off.
28th-Nov-2010 03:17 am (UTC)
I'm so happy for you both.
28th-Nov-2010 05:49 pm (UTC)
There are many routes to Love's country
And I have forgotten most of them
So to read here
Of this brilliant slide into hope
Into dream and possibility and bliss
Is to find an old dream
Given life
And this makes my heart very glad indeed
To know old dreams don't die
Simply go walkabout
To where they need to live next.

Normally I never say Mazel Tov
But here
Here I think it fits.
28th-Nov-2010 08:18 pm (UTC)
All my best to you and sindrian, and may his sugar bowl always be full enough.
28th-Nov-2010 09:32 pm (UTC)
I'm so happy for you, lovely.
28th-Nov-2010 11:16 pm (UTC)
I know exactly the way you feel. The same thing happened with Matt and me. I hope I'll be able to see more of the both of you when I have less on my plate, and am more free to travel.
29th-Nov-2010 03:30 pm (UTC)
That would be awesome. <3
29th-Nov-2010 05:43 pm (UTC)
*grin* Well, at the very least, I'll be out two times in December, although one of those times will be to fly out to Minnesota.
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