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Scheherazade in Blue Jeans
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Y'know what sucks more than emergency oral surgery? 
7th-Oct-2010 05:16 pm
Knowing is half the battle
Getting triggered during emergency oral surgery.

The brief summary because dental stuff can be triggery for people anyway: he would've sent me to an oral surgeon had the oral surgeon been open, because I really *needed* the oral surgeon. But I needed immediate care more. And it was a very difficult extraction by *his* standards, not just mine.


About an hour into the procedure, I remembered very very acutely the last time the corners of my mouth had been stretched like that. It was during the rape when I was 20, when I was gagged with a tube sock. I remembered this very. fucking. acutely. Breathed through it, fought through it. But I'm still shaking.


This is the filler text so if you want to see about the procedure but not the thing what triggered me, you won't see it by clicking on the next cut tag. Because I care.

Dentist was surprised that I knew that what was being numbed was my trigeminal nerve. Because apparently that's secret PhD knowledge. Seriously, I got the dead stop, narrowed eyes, and he asked all suspiciously, "How do you know that?" What, I don't look like someone who knows about the nerves in my face? Is it the hair? I don't know.

I have Vicodin. And antibiotics. And an icepack and a wad of gauze. I have about eight zillion things I have to do tonight. I'm shaking like a chihuahua on espresso. How are you?


He essentially had to break the tooth out of my mouth. Again and again and again. Heavy pressure and SNAP over and over. Lecturing me the whole time, when he wasn't muttering to himself. And you can hear and feel your tooth breaking, just so you know. It is fucking arduous. Fucking arduous.

An hour and a half.

I was in full-body clench for most of it, so I'm sure I'm going to be full-body achy tonight.

No exercise for 24 hours. I'm like oh that works fine because I don't have to be performing onstage for another 29 hours hahaha. Although actually there's rehearsal. Ha.

Hi guys. So today sucked. How's by you?
Comments 
7th-Oct-2010 09:27 pm (UTC)
Oh god I'm so sorry.

Yeah, that tooth-breaking thing. When I was ten an oral surgeon had to break my impacted lower 12 year molars in half in my jaw to get them out. This two-hundred pound guy leaning what felt like his entire weight on my jaw trying to crack them, while I tried desperately to hold my jaw up with my hands. Least fun medical experience possibly ever. At least he ignored me rather than lecturing me.

Urg. I hope things improve really fast, and that tomorrow is full of excellentness.
7th-Oct-2010 09:30 pm (UTC)
aaaaaagh ::bad shivers::

my heart, to you, now.
7th-Oct-2010 09:44 pm (UTC)
Wow, that's fucking terrible. :(

Lots of healing energy your way.

7th-Oct-2010 09:47 pm (UTC)
Good thoughts from me to you, 'song.
7th-Oct-2010 09:49 pm (UTC)
oh man. D:

you have tons and tons of sympathy from me. -offers hugs-
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7th-Oct-2010 10:01 pm (UTC)
You know, the con could suck total donkey dick and how would you know?

I am so sorry.

(This kind of rates up there with 'drink a raw frog before going to con - nothing will seem worse next to that.)

Edited at 2010-10-07 10:01 pm (UTC)
7th-Oct-2010 10:01 pm (UTC)
Bloody hell. :( *soothing hugs*
7th-Oct-2010 10:03 pm (UTC)
Got your postcard today, though! Thank you! *hug*
8th-Oct-2010 04:41 am (UTC)
Glad you liked it. :)
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7th-Oct-2010 10:30 pm (UTC)
*love and understanding* I hate dentists and doctors oh so much. Necessary evils. because I always feel like I've lost bodily autonomy around them and because they treat patients, esp. women, like idiots who don't know a thing about anatomy and physiology.
7th-Oct-2010 10:32 pm (UTC)
Yes. This.
7th-Oct-2010 10:37 pm (UTC)
Feel better soon, and please try to be proud of yourself for recognizing the trigger and fighting through it. That takes a lot of strength and self-awareness.
7th-Oct-2010 10:37 pm (UTC)
That's horrible in so many ways! The full-body clench thing is something I empathize with! If I try to unclench, I just stop breathing. It's very weird.

Cut about 7.99 zillion of the things and delegate them to... whoever. I wish I was able to help!
7th-Oct-2010 11:19 pm (UTC)
I'm getting some good solid help for my tonight stuff, thank goodness.
7th-Oct-2010 10:53 pm (UTC)
Yea. That would have set me off. Totally.

My dental issues were caused by a damned dentist (I was 9, he was drunk, I'll spare you the rest of the details). I can barely manage a cleaning without a bad case of the screaming abdabs.

Here's to the magic of Vicodin and not having to go through that again.
7th-Oct-2010 10:55 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I need to find one that'll put me under more. But I did not have the leisure today.

Go go gadget Vicodin.
7th-Oct-2010 11:00 pm (UTC)
GAH. I'm so, so sorry. The Universe owes you a really, really good thing in return for something so lousy.
7th-Oct-2010 11:19 pm (UTC)
I hereby demand that StrowlerCon be epically awesome.
8th-Oct-2010 12:45 pm (UTC)
Your demand to the Universe's multiplexed aural appendages!
7th-Oct-2010 11:02 pm (UTC)
Grahhh.

Dentists. I really, really dislike them. Horrific pediatric dentist who should never have worked with children.

*shudder* Awful, hon. I'm glad it's over, though, and may things get a lot better for you.
7th-Oct-2010 11:37 pm (UTC)
Seriously, I got the dead stop, narrowed eyes, and he asked all suspiciously, "How do you know that?"

After I had hernia surgery, I identified what I had something like a "healing ridge" over the incision and the surgeon sort of rolled his eyes and said--in a tone reserved for talking to small children while patting their heads-- "Ah, you've been reading again."

Luckily, our dentist is good and not at all like that. He comes from below with the needle so it doesn't cross my field of vision.

Sorry you had a hellish time.
7th-Oct-2010 11:38 pm (UTC)
"Ah, you've been reading again."

I got pretty much that from a prior neurologist. Condescending as hell.
8th-Oct-2010 12:49 pm (UTC)
I used to get this until I a) got a good doctor and b) would start off my conversations with doctors by saying, "I'm a medical writer."

My dad's cardiologist HATED me, though, because my parents would come into Dad's appointments armed with my lengthy emails. I lost patience with him entirely (well, the second time -- the first time was when he nearly killed my dad by ignoring Dad's complaints of textbook angina symptoms for six months) when he couldn't come up with a non-sulfa-drug diuretic to put my dad on. I sent a very snarky email to my parents with a list of pre-1990s diuretics still on the market. And they handed the email to him. hahahahahaah
7th-Oct-2010 11:41 pm (UTC) - *cringe*
I hope you feel better soon.

My day was spent helping,sorta, the carpet guy and getting little thingsdone at building two. And hating my BalackBerry whenever it rang. Cause my shoulders hurt like heck and I won't get any relief any time soon.

But I hope you feel better soon cause your day sucked more.

Edited at 2010-10-07 11:41 pm (UTC)
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8th-Oct-2010 12:33 am (UTC)
I hereby beg, plead and wheedle every goddess in the heavens to condemn every single fucking condescending, sexist, abusive or otherwise shite-ful medical professional to a perpetual afterlife in which they are denied pain meds, have their boundaries violated, and are talked to as though they are moody 4-year-olds overdue for their naps.
8th-Oct-2010 04:42 am (UTC)
SRSLY.
8th-Oct-2010 08:03 pm (UTC)
Word.
8th-Oct-2010 01:02 am (UTC)
Ugh ugh ugh. I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I hope you have an super-amazing-awesome time at StrowlerCon that will help you feel better and put this behind you.
8th-Oct-2010 02:24 am (UTC)
I hear ya. Oh, how I hear ya.

My deepest sympathies, sweetie.
8th-Oct-2010 03:08 am (UTC)
Oh god.
8th-Oct-2010 03:27 am (UTC)
*hug*
I hope your mouth heals quickly. I also hope that, if possible, you can get something put in to replace the now-missing tooth.
8th-Oct-2010 12:10 pm (UTC)
Oh, it's okay, it's a back molar. No holes in my smile!
8th-Oct-2010 12:17 pm (UTC)
*grin* it is a lovely smile; but my first concern was how it would affect your chewing and eating. (And yeah, given the response I kinda figured you were using somebody else's computer)

I have two wisdom teeth in my mouth, both on top. The bottom teeth were extracted many years ago because of impaction (man, they hurt!). The two on top do not particularly affect my eating but they do affect my cleaning routine and occasionally will bite the inside of my cheek. I need to get them removed some year.

Just food for thought, though I understand if you are reluctant to visit a dentist.
8th-Oct-2010 12:11 pm (UTC)
(That's Shira on Numath's computer.)
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8th-Oct-2010 09:16 am (UTC)
You know it's always puzzled me that. Why are so many people in the 'caring' professions so damned uncaring?!

I mean, yes, you get some good ones... but they're rare enough to be the exception not the rule.

Anyway, hope you start feeling better soon, and that karma pays out for this!
8th-Oct-2010 12:29 pm (UTC)
Aieeee.... I'm so sorry that you had to go through that - total suckage. :(

*healing thoughts to you*
10th-Oct-2010 10:46 pm (UTC)
Oh hell's bells. :( I'm sorry the whole experience was so traumatic, and that the dentist made it even worse. *big hugs* And I hope Strowlercon was able to take your mind off it by being filled with awesome.
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