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Scheherazade in Blue Jeans
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Blogathon: Cicatrix 
31st-Jul-2010 02:59 pm
Hearth
It is autumn, and you have allowed yourself to be happy.

It feels strange. It is a thing you have never really let yourself be. You have known all your life about the cracks in your world, and you have written your own map; you avoid the broken places, you have laid your path in places that do not hurt. But you have broken again, so unexpectedly - and this time not from without, but from within.

Because through your years with Jason, with his father, the long years after, you thought some essential part of you was dead - the part that could feel hope, the part that could connect to anyone else, the part that could feel safe in this world. Dead or never born, never grown.

But now you meet Aaron for tea or for dancing, now you walk down the street with another person who has been broken like you have but has kept on living, defiant, and you feel like something is pushing its way out of you, widening the cracks, letting hope in. Letting you feel something from without.

It is autumn, and you wrap yourselves in scarves and crunch leaves underfoot and slip your hand into someone else's, and you still don't quite fit here, but you feel like perhaps you could.

If only you could release your elsewhere, and the only hope you've had for years - the hope of going back.









Gorgeous lace scarf by Suzanne C! The pattern is Rivolo by Anne Hanson, and the yarn is Handmaiden Sea Silk - silk and SeaCell. As Suzanne says, "On survivorship and lace knitting: the holes are what make the whole more beautiful."

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Comments 
31st-Jul-2010 07:50 pm (UTC)
Beautiful, both the story and the shawl!

In case anyone is on the fence about bidding, SeaSilk is one of the most decadent fibers ever. I say this as a fiber snob, who owns cashmere and silk and qiviut and all manner of other luxury textiles, the shawl I love best is my SeaSilk shawl :) $30, where the bidding stands now, is a steal.
31st-Jul-2010 07:52 pm (UTC)
SRSLY. I have been petting this and going OOOOOOH. Adam came home and I was like "I am buying lots of sea silk on my next paycheck, brace yourself."
31st-Jul-2010 08:01 pm (UTC)
Order it from someplace like Colorsong; the selection at Windsor Button when I was in the area a few weeks ago? Damaged. Wee battered skeins, and too few of them.

Wounded I was, I tell you what. I was praying for some of the Double or Sea Three to play with (original is too thin for me to use without pain).
31st-Jul-2010 08:03 pm (UTC)
Sadface! I'll order from Eat.Sleep.Knit; I need to get some Dream in Color and Malabrigo, too, and they carry all three.
31st-Jul-2010 08:08 pm (UTC)
Makes sense. Chief arguments for Colorsong are stupendous colourway range and free shipping, but if you need everything in one box, ESK sounds like the way to go.

Ended up at Stitch House in Dorchester (red line! Just farther along it!) with some Madeleinetosh. zomg.
31st-Jul-2010 08:09 pm (UTC)
Haven't tried Madelinetosh yet! Is yum?
31st-Jul-2010 08:13 pm (UTC)
French artisanal cultured butter all over fluffy popcorn yum. Not Malabrigo soft, but within the realm, save with structural integrity on frog. Never such perfect semisolids as this, all jewels and lowlights.

So, kinda yeah.
31st-Jul-2010 08:26 pm (UTC)
Just to sell you further, the yardage is also great for the price. That entire scarf is from one skein of the stuff.

It was nice.
31st-Jul-2010 08:28 pm (UTC)
Love your icon.

It would probably be verra nice for a stole or shawl! I don't wear scarves as much; I get cold easily and need more surface area...
31st-Jul-2010 08:15 pm (UTC)

... just saw the signal boost. Todah! :)
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