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Scheherazade in Blue Jeans
freelance alchemist
Other things I am 
5th-May-2010 07:27 pm
Hearth
Very short. Shorter than you think.
A mom.
Mostly-invisibly disabled.
A writer.
Poly.
Bisexual; I guess pansexual.
Kinky. Not telling you how kinky unfiltered; I have co-workers reading this!
A survivor, of more than most of you know.
An activist.
A supertaster.
Very sensitive to smell.
A synesthete.
Pretty goddamn smart.
Pretty goddamn profane.
Not a pretty girl. (That is not what I do.)
Culturally Jewish, mostly religiously pagan, fairly lackadaisical.
Only content when I am doing something.
A keeper of everyone's secrets but my own. I don't have any; aftereffects of a childhood of having too many.
An occasional priestess.
Deeply in love at all times.
Unfiltered.
Never silent.

To go back to physical dissonance: Only deeply in touch with my body when I'm dancing, being physically intimate, or engaging in kinky funtimes. I blame this on my childhood and on the fact that my body has been physically malfunctioning and wildly variable for far too long. I am fixing this by engaging in all three grounding activities as much as I can.

I have been married thrice, a stripper, a jeweler, a secretary, a junkie, a jailbait headbanger, a very different person in ways that may surprise you.

I never thought I'd live to 18. Then 21. Then I got pregnant, and I rewired my brain as I was detoxing, because if I was going to be someone's mother I had to be none of the things I'd been and a whole lot I never learned how to be.

I have said: When you lose everything, when everything is taken from you, the great freedom is in deciding what to take with you and what to leave behind.

I want to go to med school, dance with fire fans, dance burlesque. I want to live a long time, even if I never did figure out how. I want to meet my grandkids. I want to do everything I want.

I want a lot.

And I want a pony. And a clipboard. And dinner.
Comments 
5th-May-2010 11:29 pm (UTC)
You forgot the one where you are awesome.
5th-May-2010 11:31 pm (UTC)
That too!
5th-May-2010 11:36 pm (UTC)
We have absolutely got to talk more. *hug* I hope to spend some time with you at WisCon! You're awesome.
5th-May-2010 11:38 pm (UTC)
Definitely look me up at Wiscon! You're awesome too! :)
5th-May-2010 11:38 pm (UTC)
>>When you lose everything, when everything is taken from you, the great freedom is in deciding what to take with you and what to leave behind.<<

This struck me as poignant today. Thank you.
5th-May-2010 11:38 pm (UTC)
Glad it helped. *hug*
6th-May-2010 12:05 am (UTC)
I so would give you dinner.
(Wait, I have.)
6th-May-2010 12:28 am (UTC)
And you're good at it, too!
6th-May-2010 01:03 am (UTC)
And I want a pony. And a clipboard. And dinner.

I can probably come up with all three, but it will not be a pony/clipboard/dinner monster.
6th-May-2010 01:12 am (UTC)
Thou art the bouncing cat's balls, indeed.

(When you've caught up with yourself, I'll beg to get on your social list. Red Line accessible anywhere, for whatever you can eat.)
24th-May-2010 04:28 pm (UTC)
Yes, please!
6th-May-2010 01:12 am (UTC)
Shadesong: We have never actually met... I found you through other peoples profiles.... but what you said today on here : "When you lose everything, when everything is taken from you, the great freedom is in deciding what to take with you and what to leave behind." really is hitting home right now... as well as the "I want to live a long time, even if i never did figure out how". You have inspired me a few times in the past as well...and you and your daughter are all kinds of awesome....

I just wanted to say Thank you from someone you never have actually met....

-Mouse (aka Dhani in some circles)
6th-May-2010 01:13 am (UTC)
You are amazing.
6th-May-2010 01:20 am (UTC)
'song. this is excellent. you are excellent.
6th-May-2010 02:34 am (UTC)
This is wonderful.
6th-May-2010 02:43 am (UTC)
Ooh! What kind of synesthete are you?
6th-May-2010 10:37 am (UTC)
Weirdly, touch as sound. Also sometimes smell and taste as color.
7th-May-2010 05:01 am (UTC)
Have you read "The Hidden Sense"?
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6th-May-2010 03:25 am (UTC)
Not a pretty girl.

May I disagree?
6th-May-2010 04:17 am (UTC)
This isn't very related to your entry, but if you have published Jewish science fiction or fantasy stories in the past ten years, and want them considered for reprinting, send 'em over. :D
6th-May-2010 10:38 am (UTC)
I wish! No, nothing I've published has been outright Jewish; some characters may have been, but never mentioned in the story. :( I *should* write something, though, especially with the religion-exploration stuff I've been doing lately.
6th-May-2010 06:19 am (UTC)
If you're serious about the pony, I could introduce you to people who might be able to make that happen. If you don't know them already.
6th-May-2010 10:39 am (UTC)
Adam's allergic; I can't have one. :(
7th-May-2010 05:02 am (UTC)
Rent-a-pony?
7th-May-2010 05:32 am (UTC)
Oh, bummer. :-(
6th-May-2010 05:28 pm (UTC)
Why the clipboard?

And have you considered renting a pony for a day?
8th-May-2010 01:34 am (UTC)
And I want a pony. And a clipboard. And dinner.

What happened to the hedgehog?
8th-May-2010 11:57 am (UTC)
A keeper of everyone's secrets but my own. I don't have any; aftereffects of a childhood of having too many.

Oh! Wow! Thank you for that - it has helped me realise that, after 42 years of life (almost 43), this is the case for me as well and is probably why I am too an almost completely open book! *hugs*
13th-May-2010 04:44 pm (UTC)
This is a great post - I've kept it open in a tab for the past week. Just wanted to make another comment telling you how great you are.
18th-May-2010 02:45 am (UTC)
Wow. You are Pretty Durn Interesting, is what you are :)
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