I can has JOB.
And now that I have it, I can tell you what it is, and you will see why I was so wound up and paralyzed with hope.
It is a part-time job at BARCC.
Half of the job = stuff I've been doing anyway on a volunteer basis.
The other half = stuff I loved doing at my job back in Florida... administrative demigoddess stuff.
And I have a job for the first time in years, and it is a job making the world a better place. Which is what I have always, always wanted. I have volunteered my way into my dream job.
I am excited almost to the point of speechless.